I was 12. I was about to enter highschool and i knew what i wanted. I wanted highschool to pass quickly and for college to come at once. I wanted the freedom, the rush of emotions knowing you have the chance to stand on your own. I was ready. Or atleast I thought I was.

I'm 16 now. I'm sitting on one side of the apartment. Writing this blog. Wondering, how did i ever get this lost? I don't feel like myself anymore. There's this sword above my head. And I'm asking, what happened? I was this girl in highschool, I wasn't on top of the class, I was not Mathematically Smart I wasn't a honor student. I was good with Literature, Poetry. I lived in a small town, I had a simple family, I loved rainbows, I would jump all over the house, sing at the top of my lungs. I loved kiddie shows. I was average, I did not have a boyfriend or any intimate attachments. I had an ordinary life, and yet I WAS HAPPY HAPPY.

I'm in college now. I study. I don't go to late-night parties. I have failing grades(i study okayy. it's just that. i don't know. ughh). I doubt if I'm ever gonna find any super real friends. I can't seem to make a connection with college friends. My family is great, blame me. okay? Maybe, I just need to go home for a while. Figure things out.

Love Tell-all

So there's this guy, he sits next to me everyday in class. I have the biggest crush on him and he would talk to me every single day. I would never tell him about how I felt. Everyday, i'd look at him wondering how someone so nice and cool could exist. A girl would never get over that kind of love, do you know what i'm talking about?


He is that guy. He is smart. cool. he has the coolest laugh. It's kind of stupid the way i can't see anything else with him around. I never was the stalker type. I was the silent type who would stutter every time the guy she likes talks to het. I was that type. I never complained though.

The point is I don't have the courage to tell him how I feel. And all you people might say I should have but reality doesn't go that way you know. I'm average, ordinary, unpopular. Life's different if you're like that. MOVIES MAKE IT SEEM EASY. Reality bites. Suck it up. I guess, he'll always be that cool guy. the way he feels about me is left undiscovered but it's okayyyy. I know he's gonna find someone worthy. And I'd be more than happy for him. That's the way love should go

Love <3

HOW IS A GIRL SUPPOSED TO DEAL WITH LIKING A GUY. SITTING NEXT TO HIM EVERYDAY, KNOWING THAT'S ALL IT'LL EVER BE?

BSN1-D

BSN1-D, proceed to my facebook to see who they are
so, there are 47 of us in the class. :}} a lot like high school. nearly 70% of the class are girls.

Velez Collegeh

The campus is scary, the chairs are like scratch papers with a lot of scribbles. Yet, somehow. I love and I'm proud to be fortunate enough to attend this school. Velez College dude. :}}


more news about life in velez soon.
ell-oh-ve-ee, ellaine

Transformers/ June 27 09

I went to Ayala at 11:30. Gaah, i've never seen the mall so full of people. People of all ages were there, kids, fathers, etc. gaah, transformers and it's appeal. Good thing we had reservations froom sureseats.com. The movie was awesommeeeee dude. :}} Shia Labeouf. i love you. seriously.

Transformers 2:Revenge of the fallen w/ angela, rodney, gervel, rodd

xox, ellaine

The Basics

Ellaine B. Patalinghug/16/Palompon, Leyte
BSN1-D, Velez College
i'm 16. i'm not a big deal. i love literature, i've always wanted to be a writer. what the... i want to be a doctor too. that answers your "why'd you take up nursing" question
talk. mingle. laugh with me. and you'll feel like you've known me for a decade

FACEBOOK: pernicous_glossxx@yahoo.com